Friday, December 24, 2010

Christmas Eve...

Last Sunday afternoon,
as I was speaking to my Dad on the phone,
I was telling him how the Christmas hype was already running high
and how I was fearing the coming week...
Then I made the comment: " I don't remember being this bad!"
to which he responded:
" That is the key word: you don't remember... Though you weren't the worst..."

That got me thinking...
Have I ever told you about my Brother Ben?
Benjamin is 18 months older than me.
He was always the one to come up with the "evil" plans...
And somehow I always went along with them...
I mean look at him!

Handsome: Absolutely!
But you will agree with me that even at 30 you can see the mischief in his eyes...
So remembering Christmases past,
I remember the excitement and all of Benji's secret plans...

All this brings me to today
and to the smile Joseph gave me this morning
as he was leaving for his "half day" of work...

You know the kind of smile that says:
"Boy am I happy I'm going to work this morning!
Have fun with the kids Honey!"

As a kid I loved Christmas Eve!
The excitement, the magic,...

As a parent:
I can't wait for Christmas day to finally be here
so my kids can be normal again...

Merry Christmas Eve to all of you parents!
We'll make it to Christmas morning somehow!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

July and August in pictures...

On the way back to Utah

4th of July fireworks!

Visiting Montreal for my Dad's 60th birthday!

With my maternal Grandmother
With all my siblings!

All the family that was present...

Reflexions on the past few months...

I know it has been MONTHS!

Life has been a busy little sequence...

Well we made it back to Utah safe and sound
though none of our plans ended up working out the way we had planned.

We have settled back in our lives and have learned once again that
though we make our own choices,
there is a Master of our destiny
Who guides, directs and blesses us in His own time.

Joseph did get a good job in September as our savings were about to run out.

The kids are back in school with their old friends and LOVING it!

But we still haven't made it back into our beloved 2nd ward...
(We live just kitty corner on the border...)

At first that was hard to swallow.
And although I still very much want to be back in my old ward,
their is a peace that has settled upon me
that once again there is a purpose in being where we are...

As I have reflected a lot about the last year these past few weeks,
there is one realization that sticks out:
I am happy!

Happy with family, myself,
Happy with where I am spiritually, physically, emotionally...

And once again there is this feeling that something is coming...
Something good but challenging.

So I'm gearing up.

If there is one thing I have learned over this last year
is that no matter what comes our way,
our Father in heaven will lend his support,
as long as we do His will.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Testing of our Faith...

There is absolutely something to be said
about a Loving God that guides and inspires His children.

There is something to be said of His infinite love.

Unlike me, our Father in Heaven is a perfect parent.

He appreciates and understands better
the value of work and effort
when it comes to teaching His children.

But this post isn't about parenting, it's about Faith and the tests and trials thereof.

For the past six months or so we have been receiving this prompting.
As I prayed, I would ask for guidance and inspiration in very general terms.
I would avoid being specific mainly because part of me knew what answer I wanted
and I wasn't sure if I was ready to accept any answer...

But as these things go,
the situation reached its peak,
I could no longer avoid the elephant in the room.
So I gathered my courage,
humbled myself as I knelt in prayer.
I was finally ready.
Whatever the answer was, I just needed to KNOW.

The answer came.
It was what my heart desired
(which somehow always makes it harder...).
And then,
as if by divine intervention,
everything seemed to be falling into place.
I felt the guidance and the blessings being poured upon us.

Yet here I am 3 weeks later.
Decisions have been made,
planning is underway
everything else seems to be falling apart.

As I reflect upon the bumps in the road we are currently facing,
I realize what faith is once again.
Believing without seeing.

And most of all I remember that it is through the test of my faith that I am made stronger.

I am no longer proud.
I know that submitting to the Master's will IS the only way through.

I understand that His will will be done.

I am reminded of the words of Moroni:
"And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith."

And my faith is holding me up,
His love is shining through by the peace I feel.

Peace that it is the right decision.
Peace that enduring well will bring the needed blessings.
Peace that it will all be fine.

And I get back to work.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Sunday inspiration...

Found this on Youtube and loved it so I thought I would share!

Saturday, May 8, 2010

A touching message about Motherhood from nienie

Have you seen this yet?

If you haven't take the time! It is not only touching, but also inspiring!

I pray I can be as good a mom as Stephanie is...

Happy mother's day to all!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Monday, March 22, 2010

A sad sad day indeed...

I woke up early to an hungry baby this morning.

After feeding him I grabbed my exercise ball, my weights and my stretchy band;
went out to the living room to do my planned workout.
Once I finished and was finally "awake",
the reality of yesterday finally sank in.

I now live in a different country that the one I lived in yesterday.
How did we get here?
Where do we go from now?

I am on the verge of tears.
I want to weep for this country,
MY country if only still in my heart for now...

What of the American ideals?
What of the REAL hope?

There is a sense of dread,
a definite sadness.
But also a sense of powerlessness.

How do we save the Republic?
What can now be done?
And HOW is this even constitutional?

As much as it has been said:
Health care is NOT a right.
Just as food, or a house or a job isn't.
NO one is entitled.
We only have privileges.
Our right are GOD given:
life, liberty, the pursuit of happiness...

Entitlement is what brought us here.

And though I am sad,
I will square up my shoulder and go forward.

And even if I have to die doing it,
I will teach my children that they are entitled to NOTHING,
that HARD WORK is STILL what makes America.

I will teach them the REAL history of this country
and the LOVE of the founders.

Because this is still the PROMISED land.
And somehow,
We will save the Republic.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Adventures in Parenting...

The Highs and Lows of parenting can sometimes be dizzying...

Last Wednesday afternoon after school.
My boys are playing in the backyard.
Zack is having a hard time with coughing.
He comes in, kneels down, says a prayer.
He gets up, tells me Heavenly Father is going to help him with his cough.
Goes back outside.
Resumes his game.
That night for the first time in a few days he doesn't cough in bed...

Thursday afternoon after school.
Zack is in time out multiple times.
For various reasons...
I open his school folder.
There is a note from his teacher.
"Did not make a good choice of words"...

As proud as I am of my 6 year old exercising his simple yet strong faith, I cannot reconcile the two events without shaking my head wildly...

I guess that is the reason why life AND learning is a process...

I LOVE him madly! (Because some days I think that is exactly where he is driving me!)
He is the perfect mix of opposites if ever there was one.
Sweet and gentle heart yet wild and the biggest tease...

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Going the way of all the earth...

There is something about this saying by King Benjamin (a Prophet from the Book of Mormon) that I like.
Maybe it is the poetry in it... But mostly I think it is because it reminds me that Death is the great equalizer that all of us must go through.

Strangely, I have been pondering about death a lot lately...

The Monday before Valentine's day, we received an email from the Boys school announcing that a first grade teacher who had been battling cancer for about a year had passed away that morning. She was leaving behind her husband (a P.E. teacher at the same school) and two boys: 4th and 6th grade... Such heartbreak... I was so sad for them. As I said a prayer for them, I couldn't help but to be grateful for the knowledge that I have and the belief that there is a life after this one, and that families can be forever...

As Joseph has been out in Utahland for the Wall twins homecoming this weekend, there has been another reminder of these great and eternal truths. There hardly is a week that goes by where I do not think of Kelly, of his impact on our little family and of the lasting friendship we have with the Walls...

Last night, when I talked with Joseph, he informed me that another member of our old ward had passed away from Cancer in the morning. I didn't feel the heartbreak this time, though I wish I was there to comfort his wife... There was no heartbreak because I remember brother Carol's eyes, that 1st Sunday after coming back from a trip to the Nauvoo Temple in 2008 where his wife and son were sealed to him for all eternity...

I first got to know the Carols through Church Women Volleyball. Debbie was there every Thursday night! As I had learned to know them fairly well, I noticed their eyes that summer Sunday. Because I saw their JOY, their FAITH and their LIGHT...

Halloween 2008

You see the Carols are good people. They aren't rich, they aren't poor. They own a little house and Brother Carol has his tow truck company. The thing that always impressed me about them is their generosity and the unselfishness they show. I once inadvertently witnessed him slipping a $100 bill to someone in our congregation whom he knew was going through a rough patch without enough work. The Sunday they learned Joseph had lost his job, we found a Christmas card on our doorstep with some money... They give freely. Always doing whatever they can to help their fellowmen...

They were a great example to me and I love them!

Debbie, Trevor, you are in our thoughts and prayers!

So long Brother Carol; till we meet again - on the other side

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Elijah's Blessing - a month later...

Here is a picture of Elijah with his Great Grandma on his blessing day:

You see the cute little outfit?

Well, I made it...

It was a lot more work than anticipated!

And I have to thank my friend Brita for letting me come to her house and finish,
when my sowing machine jammed...
(It still doesn't work!)
Even when she had the worst cold ever that day!
She also rescued me with the sleeves!
( I detest sleeves especially when they are that little...)

But it turned out well and he looked so handsome!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Conversation around the dinner table...

Wednesday nights are always a little chaotic at our house.

We have cub scouts until 5:30 so dinner is usually something quick or a casserole.

Last night we opted for breakfast for dinner: Bacon, eggs, orange slices and toast.

I had to feed Elijah right when everything was ready, so we said prayers and Joseph dished out the food.

Here is the conversation that then took place around our dinner table:

Zack: " where is the yolk?"

Matthew: "It's hiding in the middle!" (we had over easy eggs)

"Yolks are made of Cheese." (very convinced!)

Joseph: "What?"

Matthew full of conviction: "Yolks are made of cheese!"

Joseph a little confused and amused: "No, yolks are made of yolks..."

Matthew: "But they taste like cheese."

Joseph: "yolks taste like yolks!"

Matthew: "No they really do taste like cheese!"

Joseph: "Does cheese taste like cheese or like yolks?"

Matthew: "Like cheese, but Yolks taste like cheese too."

Joseph: " Sometimes I wonder what planet you are from!"

Matthew: "I'm from Planet Earth!"

Joseph: " Are you sure? Because some of the stuff you come up with..."

Matthew: " Well, maybe you think I'm Russian!"

Joseph: "What?"

Matthew : " Maybe you think I'm Russian!"

Joseph: " Matthew, as far as I know Russians are from Earth..."

Matthew: " Not ALL of them!"

That is where we couldn't contain our laughs anymore...

So the next time you meet a Russian make sure to ask:
"Are you one of the ones that aren't from Earth?"

Friday, February 5, 2010


My sweet Husband often says I look better without makeup...

I have to admit that I do not wear makeup everyday and that it is always extremely simple when I do... I still feel like I don't know how to put makeup on... In a way, makeup scares me.

So I'll let you give your honest opinion...

Here is the before:

Here is the After:

I LOVE my sweet hubby for saying he likes me
"au naturel"
but let's face it:
he is blinded by love :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The busiest, craziest weekend of my life!

Yep! It was even more busy than the weekend we got married.

You could attribute this to the fact that we had 10 family members from out of town. Eight of which stayed at our house...

It all started the Second Saturday of January. My Dad came in and we had a few days to chat and visit before the craziness started. My in-laws came in the following Wednesday night, then it was my mom's and Joseph's Grandma and her Husband on Thursday. My sister-in-law came in Early Friday morning and that completed our confirmed guest list.

My Father-in-law was kind to bake loads of cookies for Matthew's baptism on Saturday. They were delicious, as always! My father in law makes some of the best cookies in the WORLD! And don't bother asking for a recipe... It is a well kept secret! I don't even have them! Although I finally figured out one of the secret ingredient... (and was immediately sworn to secrecy!)

Saturday we had Matthew's Baptism. More on this in a separate post...

Joseph and I took our relatives to dinner after a session of family pictures by Gilgen Photography. All the pictures turned out well and I will post some soon!

Sunday was Just as busy as Joseph blessed our youngest son Elijah. We had a nice lunch of Lasagna and Caesar Salad, rolls and roll-up cake afterward. Counting everyone, we had 24 people in our house for that lunch. Of course we made too much food! (my freezer is holding 1 leftover Lasagna and 5 containers of extra spaghetti sauce...) Big Thank you to my Mom for her help with the Lasagna!

Finally, Monday I took my mom back to the Airport in the morning. We all went to Pump-it-up after a most delicious Lunch treat at Los Cucos by Joseph's Grandma. Great Grandma and Leo left us that evening. My Dad and in-laws left early Tuesday which gave me and my Sis-in-law some time to catch up. We took her to the airport in the afternoon and were back to somewhat normal Tuesday night.

We had a Great time having everyone over and though we aren't ready to do this again anytime soon it was great! Thanks for all of your Help!

Wednesday was Clean-up day, then I got a "knock you out" cold on Thursday that is still somewhat lingering... Oh and did I mentioned I am now blogging from a new computer? The other one bit the dust Monday morning... Just wouldn't boot...

Now you know where I have been! And I am knocking on wood our life can settle a bit for now!

One day I might get caught up...

Well Christmas has come and gone and I still haven't posted about it... Well it has been a wee bit crazy in this Beckman Household!

We had a GREAT Christmas. There was a wonderful spirit in our home and even our boys were especially well behaved and happy! (Even with the Lack of sleep!)

Matthew barely slept on Christmas eve waking up around 2 but patiently waiting for his brothers to wake up... We made it to 4 am!

I love that we simplified this year! Each of our children got 3 presents from us and then the one from Santa and the Christmas eve jammies. There was no overload and we didn't overspend. We remembered the real reason for Christmas and it was nice. Simple, sweet, quiet and great!

Here is a self taken family pic that turned out pretty well!

My Cousin and her sister and their families came over in between Christmas and New Years. It was great to see them all. Even though Marie lives close by it had been a while since we had gotten together and I hadn't seen her sister Natalie and her family for about 10 years... We had a good time catching up!

We had a little New Year's eve bash with some friends form the ward here at home. We had a great time and kept it fun and relaxed! Shockingly all of our kids (Except Eli)made it to midnight this year!

Well this is it for our holiday review...

Coming soon: A recap of the busiest weekend of my life!